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A Little of Everything....

Friday, September 30, 2005

It's been a few days since I've written in here. I started to write or should I say "type" last night but I had a distraction that I will explain in a few minutes. Didn't have much to say though. Nothing exciting has really happened so I didn't feel like posting but then I received the "PHONE CALL". If you haven't talked to me today you probably have no idea what I'm talking about. Let me explain. I was talking to David last night, everything seemed to be okay. We ended up kind of getting into another small argument like we always do, didn't think much of it. He hung up on me though, which really pissed me off. I sat and waited for a few minutes hoping he'd call back. Thought about telling him I was tired of putting up w/ his shit and that I didn't want to be with him anymore. But......I realized quickly that wasn't what I wanted. As much as he drives me crazy, I care about him and I wanted to continue to try and make it work. So....a few minutes later he called. "Woohoo! He does care.", I thought. Well....Maybe I was wrong.
Turns out he was only calling to break up with me. His reason--> "I just don't care about anyone anymore, including you so I don't want to be with you." So of course I was very confused. I mean we've always had problems but I never realized they were that bad. I always thought with time it would get better. Worst part was he said we can no longer be friends either. I took that part the hardest. He doesn't realize how much he means to me and how much I would enjoy still being his friend. I could see us not being friends if him and I had been together for a long time and we had a really bad break up, but in our case I just didn't understand. Our relationship was still so new so I don't think it would be a problem being friends. Plus, the break up wasn't that bad. I mean I would have liked to be with him but overall I wanted him to be happy and if I wasn't making him happy I was fine w/ breaking up w/ him.
So after crying about it all night long, (its a girl thing)I woke up feeling much better. It's going to be hard not knowing if he's okay and what he's up to. Wondering how is job is going and if he's happy. And not being able to call him when my kitten (who he taught to be very mean lol) is doing something terrible that he probably taught her. LOL Basically what I'm saying is I'm going to miss the friendship more than anything.
I have learned that I don't have control of EVERYTHING and that if a guy loses interest and doesn't want to tell me why, well...That's just something I have to learn to deal with. Asking him over and over will just piss him off which is exactly what I did w/ David last night.
More later....time to get back to work. Plus I'm sure you're tired of reading this by now. LOL

1 Comments:

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