It's over

Well David and I aren't together anymore. I couldn't take the constant attention he needed from other girls and he couldn't take me bitching about the girls so.......basically I guess we both had enough. I was debating on breaking it off at first before I made the call but when I heard his voice I kinda froze up and gave him the choice instead of just telling him. I asked him if he thought that we should break up and then we just went from there. Basically it was a lot of him turning it around to make me feel like it was my fault and never an answer as to why he didn't let me post anything (myspace.com)which let me know right there that he does have other girls in the picture. Funny how the one who always bitches at me for not being faithful and about how he'll never be able to trust me was actually the one messing around. Oh well....I'm over it. He was great in the begining but this past month has just been too exhausting. It's sad though b/c he really is a great friend, just a lousy boyfriend. I don't know. Maybe I was just asking for too much. I want someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them. Who gets excited just hearing my voice. Someone who not only tells me they love me but SHOWS me they love me. Something I just wasn't getting from him in the past month.
So I guess its back to being single. I was so upset last night I was telling my friend how I was going to take a break and didn't want to date anyone after this for awhile b/c of how much David hurt me, but then I realized thats no the way to deal with it. So.....I'm not going to go out looking for a guy but if one comes around I'm going to give them a chance. I can't always chose the wrong one, right?