Happy Halloween!!!!

So its Halloween and I'm sooooo happy. Nothing exciting has happened...just woke up in a great mood and I've kept it all day. Everyone dressed up at work today. Yay! Our area all dressed up as Devils. It was great. See the pics above. That's Me, Leanne, & Ferol. We had a Halloween party at work too. It was pretty lame but I did finally find a guy at work that I found pretty darn attractive. Having Dave at work help me with it so we'll see where that goes. He might be a little old for me but oh well.....just want to have a little fun. Yes, thats right. I'm going to get over me ever talking to David again b/c he's not interested anymore and there's not much I can say to change that. Everyone at work keeps saying I should be happy since I'm the one that said I wanted to break up but I'm not. Can't decide if its b/c I really liked him or b/c I was use to him. I say that b/c not picking up the phone and calling when something happens or before I go to sleep at night has been the hardest part. I'm so use to talking to him before I go to sleep I don't really know what to do now. So maybe it is just more me being use to the routine. If so, that means it won't take as long to get over the whole situation. Good thing....b/c I don't want to go through the same thing I went through w/ Marcus. That took way too long. Well I'm about to go to sleep. I will write more tomorrow.

Mark's Party

Its 5:30 in the morning and I'm just now getting home. What a night. My first night out as a single woman again and what did I do......came home alone.

We ended up going to Baby A's and drinking way too much. Then Alexis' mom invited us over to this guy Mark's house for this party he was throwing. I never thought I would have had so much fun but I did. Of course David was on my mind every hour but after reading his page on myspace tonight I see that I really need to just let it go and not even attempt to be friends with him b/c I can't handle it. He had that he was looking for a cuddle buddy on his display name and as usual, my feelings got hurt. I couldn't believe that it had only been a day and he was already out looking for someone else. Guess I was right when I said that I don't think he's been wanting to be with me for awhile now.

Well back to the party, it was a lot of fun. Saw some interesting people there. Saw a crossdresser, a man that looked like a cross from Uncle Fester(Adam's Family) and Boy George. LOL! Also saw Moses smoking weed. I'm pretty sure I never read about that in the Bible. Then towards the end of the night we had a guy come in dressed up like a marijuana plant. It was hilarious. You'll see me holding one of his leaves in the picutre below. We got hit on quite a bit but not be anyone we'd ever be interested in. It was still a lot of fun. I even got back into playing pool. We definitely will hit up the next bash over there. I'd write more but like I said before....its 5:30 in the morning, I'm still pretty tipsy, and my ass is TIRED!

It's over

Well David and I aren't together anymore. I couldn't take the constant attention he needed from other girls and he couldn't take me bitching about the girls so.......basically I guess we both had enough. I was debating on breaking it off at first before I made the call but when I heard his voice I kinda froze up and gave him the choice instead of just telling him. I asked him if he thought that we should break up and then we just went from there. Basically it was a lot of him turning it around to make me feel like it was my fault and never an answer as to why he didn't let me post anything (myspace.com)which let me know right there that he does have other girls in the picture. Funny how the one who always bitches at me for not being faithful and about how he'll never be able to trust me was actually the one messing around. Oh well....I'm over it. He was great in the begining but this past month has just been too exhausting. It's sad though b/c he really is a great friend, just a lousy boyfriend. I don't know. Maybe I was just asking for too much. I want someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them. Who gets excited just hearing my voice. Someone who not only tells me they love me but SHOWS me they love me. Something I just wasn't getting from him in the past month.
So I guess its back to being single. I was so upset last night I was telling my friend how I was going to take a break and didn't want to date anyone after this for awhile b/c of how much David hurt me, but then I realized thats no the way to deal with it. So.....I'm not going to go out looking for a guy but if one comes around I'm going to give them a chance. I can't always chose the wrong one, right?

I really suck at writing in this daily. Just can't seem to remember and when I finally do I'm ususally tired and just want to go to bed.
Today was pretty good. Melissa (co-worker) was EXTRA goofy today.
And yes Melissa, I know that Goofy really lives in California & Florida but I swear he came to visit Broadwing today.
Glad she was in such a good mood b/c she helped me with mine. With everything going on between David and I it was nice to laugh a little.
Probably wondering what I'm talking about......instead of giving you the long boring story I'll just say we've been having problems. And everytime I think we're good something else happens. So its been a little exhausting. BLAH!
So the good news,
I've been holding off on renewing my lease b/c I wanted to get a bigger apt in a different area of the complex. Well....I finally found the right one. I switch apts on December 1st. =) Soooooo Happy!
Well as much as I know I should keep going and fill you in on everything else my sister is bitching b/c she needs to get on the computer. Can't wait to be back home tomorrow.

Tonight was alright. Saw a really good movie w/ Alexis.......CRASH. I didn't realize it would that good. Definitely going to have to go buy it.
Oh and yes .....my emotional ass teared up during a few parts of the movie.

Afterwards I decided to head back home. Called David but that didn't go well. It never does these days. I told him that we needed to talk tomorrow so we'll see if he calls. I'm just not happy anymore. I keep telling myself to give it time but he makes really mean comments all the time so it makes it hard to keep trying. I care about him and want to try and make it work but he's not making this easy for me. Hopefully we'll get something out of the talk tomorrow.

Well time for bed. More tomorrow.

So Tired

Okay well its 9:48 at night and I've been up since yesterday morning at 6 am. So......I'm VERY tired. I'm really not sure how I made it at work all day. I'd write more but I'm ready to go to bed so maybe I'll post more tomorrow. Time to catch some zzz's.

Recap on the weekend.

Friday night.....had Twin over til 3am b/c he had to make his darn cds. Glad we finally got that over with. It's nice being able to hang out w/ him now without it being weird.
Saturday night......Was up til 6am b/c .........well thats my little secret.
Sunday night ....... Up ALL night......that's also my little secret. All I have to say Melissa is , "THREE, THREE, THREE!!!!"

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Tiffany
Birthday:	September 16th 1983
Birthplace:	Harlingen,Texas
Current Location:	ATX (Austin, Texas)
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Dark brown w/ highlights
Height:	5'3" ..... yes I'm a little short. lol
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right Handed
Your Heritage:	I have a little of everything in me....Alexis, don't say what I think you're going to say.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Black flip flops
Your Weakness:	BAD BOYS!!!!
Your Fears:	Falling in love.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Um....not big on pizza unless its cold. So anything cold works for me.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Find Mr. Right
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	LOL (Laughing Out Loud)
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Oh no....what did I do last night?
Your Best Physical Feature:	My BIG.........smile! LOL
Your Bedtime:	midnight
Your Most Missed Memory:	Any of those crazy nights in Pville during highschool.
Pepsi or Coke:	Neither....I'm a Dr. Pepper girl.
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	Group dates
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton... Nestea tastes wierd
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Neither.....nice Frappaccino works for me.
Do you Smoke:	Occasionally when I drink.
Do you Swear:	No....I never f****** swear.
Do you Sing:	In the shower, in the car, at work, just about anywhere.
Do you Shower Daily:	Twice a day. Gotta be nice and clean.
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Going to ACC right now.
Do you want to get Married:	Someday
Do you belive in yourself:	Yes I do
Do you get Motion Sickness:	If I've been sitting in the back of a car too long I'll get sick but I'm usually pretty cool.
Do you think you are Attractive:	Yes
Are you a Health Freak:	No but I should be
Do you get along with your Parents:	As much as I can
Do you like Thunderstorms:	LOVE EM'
Do you play an Instrument:	I was in band in 6th grade. Does that count? LOL Played the clarinet.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yep
In the past month have you Smoked:	Yep
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yep, just came from there.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Nope, not really into cookies
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Actually yes, I tried it for the first time on my birthday. YUCK!!!!
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Yep....then we were back together the next day.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Nope but that would have been fun.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope
Ever been Drunk:	Of course
Ever been called a Tease:	LOL....yes, last night. Rather be called a tease than something worse.
Ever been Beaten up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	Nope
How do you want to Die:	Happy
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	When I grow up? I don't want to grow up. Grown ups are BORING!
What country would you most like to Visit:	Canada....my mom loves it up there so hopefully we'll go sometime soon.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Doesn't matter
Favourite Hair Color:	Doesn't matter
Short or Long Hair:	Short....not really feeling the braids.
Height:	6ft of taller. Sounds funny since I'm so short but I just love tall men.
Weight:	Doesn't really matter that much.
Best Clothing Style:	w/e they want to wear...I'm not that picky
Number of Drugs I have taken:	1
Number of CDs I own:	a billion
Number of Piercings:	three...ears and my tongue...another one soon.
Number of Tattoos:	two....two more are coming soon.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	I don't regret anything.....Everything I've went through has taught me some kind of lesson.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Catching up......

Dang....I'm not doing a good job of posting every day. Sorry guys! I just need to force myself to post before I go to bed or during my lunch break.
I've had a lot going on the past couple of days. Starting w/ Suki......I had to take her back to the vet Monday morning to have reconstructive surgery. =( And $215 later....she seems to be doing better. I'm just hoping we don't have to go through it again. I also finally had them put the Soft Paws on her so hopefully this will be sufficient for my apartment complex. FYI for those who don't know what I'm talking about.......Soft Paws are rubber tips you glue on cats nails so they can't scratch things. My apt. complex just changed their pet policy and now require that all cats be declawed. Since I don't believe in doing that, Soft Paws was the next option.
Yesterday, I found out that Taj (Alexis' son) had two seizures. Apparently its not uncommon for babies to get them when their fever rises too quickly. Still......very scary. He seems to be doing okay today. There is a lot more to the story but I honestly don't want to even think about it. I've never been so worried in my life.
On to something else, I finally think I've made up my mind about "GOLD" (only my co-workers will know what I'm talking about). I've decided to go for it. I'm going to take the risk and see what happens. Already had the talk so we'll just go from here.

Melissa- this means a lot more advice will be needed. I think you've turned into my therapist. Oh shit......how much will you be charging? Can you give me a discount since I help you stay sane at work sometimes too? LOL

As for David and I, we're doing okay I guess. Its been a little weird lately. Not sure he's really into it anymore. But then again, I can't really ever read him. Oh.....he informed me the other day that he 1) hates the whole idea of a blog and 2) does not want me discussing our relationship anymore on here. I understand where he is coming from but honestly don't care. I've changed a lot for him but this is just something I really don't see the point in. I will try not to bring him up as much but if I'm having a bad day and just feel like getting on here to vent about him.....thats exactly what I'm going to do.

Oh no...........its 11:53p.m. Time for bed!

6,470,856,503.....the number of people in the world as of today. 6,470,856,503 people and you're the only one I want.

Taking him back

I never did get a chance to get back on yesterday. I ended up working til about 2 AM. =( That's what happens when you decide to stay and learn how to close for EOM (end of month). Those of you who have worked in accounting know what I mean.
Anyways....I ended up talking to David last night and after he explained what was going on the day before everything made a little more sense. So........we're back together for now. I told him that we both had a lot to work on and he agreed so hopefully it will get better. Everyone thinks I'm completely stupid for staying w/ him but there is just something about him. I'm not sure if I want him as a boyfriend or more as a friend.....all I know is I want him. I'm really hoping that once he's closer everything will be more clear and I will KNOW and not hope that this was the right decision.