It's been a few days since I've written in here. I started to write or should I say "type" last night but I had a distraction that I will explain in a few minutes. Didn't have much to say though. Nothing exciting has really happened so I didn't feel like posting but then I received the "PHONE CALL". If you haven't talked to me today you probably have no idea what I'm talking about. Let me explain. I was talking to David last night, everything seemed to be okay. We ended up kind of getting into another small argument like we always do, didn't think much of it. He hung up on me though, which really pissed me off. I sat and waited for a few minutes hoping he'd call back. Thought about telling him I was tired of putting up w/ his shit and that I didn't want to be with him anymore. But......I realized quickly that wasn't what I wanted. As much as he drives me crazy, I care about him and I wanted to continue to try and make it work. So....a few minutes later he called. "Woohoo! He does care.", I thought. Well....Maybe I was wrong.
Turns out he was only calling to break up with me. His reason--> "I just don't care about anyone anymore, including you so I don't want to be with you." So of course I was very confused. I mean we've always had problems but I never realized they were that bad. I always thought with time it would get better. Worst part was he said we can no longer be friends either. I took that part the hardest. He doesn't realize how much he means to me and how much I would enjoy still being his friend. I could see us not being friends if him and I had been together for a long time and we had a really bad break up, but in our case I just didn't understand. Our relationship was still so new so I don't think it would be a problem being friends. Plus, the break up wasn't that bad. I mean I would have liked to be with him but overall I wanted him to be happy and if I wasn't making him happy I was fine w/ breaking up w/ him.
So after crying about it all night long, (its a girl thing)I woke up feeling much better. It's going to be hard not knowing if he's okay and what he's up to. Wondering how is job is going and if he's happy. And not being able to call him when my kitten (who he taught to be very mean lol) is doing something terrible that he probably taught her. LOL Basically what I'm saying is I'm going to miss the friendship more than anything.
I have learned that I don't have control of EVERYTHING and that if a guy loses interest and doesn't want to tell me why, well...That's just something I have to learn to deal with. Asking him over and over will just piss him off which is exactly what I did w/ David last night.
More later....time to get back to work. Plus I'm sure you're tired of reading this by now. LOL

Hurricane Rita

Well I forgot to write in my blog last night. I got in yet another argument w/ David and went to bed. So nothing interesting happened. I've been fighting w/ him a lot in the past couple of days. We both seem to be driving eachother crazy. I came so close last night to telling him that I couldn't take it and that we should just break up. It was right there, about to come out of my mouth.......and I just couldn't do it. Not sure what's going on with me. I'm really not sure why he has such a hold on me. Anyways.....ended up going to bed and not planning on calling him for a few days.
Now today, I was driving to work and turned on the radio, completely not thinking about David.
I then heard how they are evacuating Galveston and how they are suggesting that people in Houston leave as well b/c Hurricane Rita has already turned into a category 4 and could possibly turn into a category 5 soon. First thing that I thought of was David......funny how just last night I never wanted to speak to him again. So I tried calling but of course he didn't answer his phone. Not sure if he's sleeping(he worked last night) or just ignoring the calls but I was really hoping to get a hold of him. I can't stop worrying about him and its driving me crazy. The hurricane hasn't even hit yet and they're not sure its even going to hit Houston that bad but I'm still very concerned. It's really starting to hit me just how much I care about him.....once again.
Hopefully I will get a hold of him and convince him to come to Austin. I'd feel much better if he was here w/ me. We'll see what happens.

Had another WONDERFUL night!!!!!

Day 2 of my BIRTHDAY WEEKEND!!! (NIGHT TIME)

We went to Baby A's for drinks tonight. (Kristal, Alexis, Nyssa, and myself) I ended up drinking way too much. Afterwards we decided to go down town. We didn't really have a specific place we were going to so when we got there we stopped at River City Tattoos. Ooops....not a good place to be. I was TEMPTED and of course gave in..........yes I got a TATTOO! See the pic --->
Mom is definitely going to kill me. I really am excited that I got it. It hurt like hell but it was worth it. It means LOVE. And its on my left wrist. =) Think I'm done w/ tattoos for a while now. Two is enough. Another piercing??? Maybe.....we'll see.
Well we spent the whole night at the tattoo place b/c after I got mine Nyssa decide to get one too. So.....we didn't get out til 3:30 in the morning. No partying for us. It was all good though.....we had fun.

Day 2 of my BIRTHDAY WEEKEND!!!!

I did a lot of shopping today w/ my mom. It was nice being that it was just the two of us. Nick is glued to her hip so we don't get to do things without him very often. lol
Basically just hung out w/ the family all day.

My Birthday!!!!!

WooHoo! It's my BIRTHDAY!!!!!
Today has been great. Had a wonderful day at work. Received losts of Happy Birthdays from everyone. Mark(Justin & Bri's dad) even remembered to call. =)
We went to Kobe Steakhouse for dinner. It ended up being Mom, Nick, Kristal, Katya, and Alexis that came. It was so good. Tried sushi for the 1st time.....and the last. LOL! Actually it wasn't that bad. Just not something I'd ever order. We took lots of pictures so as soon as I have them developed I will post them on here.

Oh and my mom ended up getting me the ring I wanted from James Avery. =)

End of a very long weekend

Well I've had a very good but long weekend. It started w/ David coming down to see me. =)
It was so nice having him here again. Made me realize even more just how much I like him. The only bad thing was I didn't want him to leave.
Then Saturday I went to my mom's house and did a lot of shopping. Fun, fun, fun.
Today, I went to my Aunt Kendra's new place in San Antonio. We played w/ all my Mary Kay stuff and she is intrested in purchasing a few things. =) I also got to see my grandmother which was nice b/c I don't get to see her very often.
And to end the night........on the drive home I talked to my mom about David for awhile. It was nice being able to talk to her about one of my boyfriends without her telling me, "I don't want to hear it." She actually seemed interested in what I had to say about him. Honestly this has never happened before. I've never said more than two things about a guy I was dating b/c she never approves.
Overalll a good weekend. Now time for bed b/c I have work in the morning.

WEB CAM

Hey Everyone......Finally bought myself a web cam. The reaction from my co-workers was, "Do I need to undo the parental lock to view it?" LOL Thought that was pretty funny. The answer is no of course. LOL
Just thought it would be fun to play w/ every now and then. Plus, mom has one too now so we can view eachothers. And as long as her BF (Nick) doesn't get on w/ his shirt off again we're all good.
So.....lets see. Haven't written in here in a few days. Nothing major has happened. Spent a while talking to David last night on the phone. Finally see where he's coming from now in regards to him not opening up more. Glad we talked. We both got a lot out that definitely needed to be said. I think it can only get better from here.
Um.....I guess thats it. Oh.....I talked to my bestfriend tonight and she's considering moving out of her apt. which works for me b/c I was looking into moving into a bigger unit. (She lives in my apartment complex incase you didn't figure that out). Nothing is set yet but I have a feeling it will all end up working out for both of us.
Well thats it for tonight. I have to be up at 5am so I really needed to have my butt in bed already.
Sweet Dreams!

HAD A WONDERFUL NIGHT LAST NIGHT!!!!!

9/3/05

I knew there’d come a time when my past would affect us.
But you said, “The past is the past and there’s nothing more to discuss.”
So I decided to give us a chance and be with only you,
Not believing it would last, not thinking I’d fall for you.

So now that past is coming up just like I knew it would.
You can’t trust me and say I haven’t given you a reason that you should.
You’re right….judging by my past, faithful I don’t seem to be,
But the one thing you don’t know is that no one in my past treated me the way you treat me.

You make me feel special, like I deserve the best.
You make me want only you, I’ve forgotten about the rest.
So there is no one else, no need for your concern.
See people can change, that’s something you need to learn.

So stop pushing me away b/c my feelings for you are true.
As much as I hate to admit it, I’ve fallen in love with you.

Well I've attempted to write today about three times and I think I'm finally giving up. I'm really just not in the best mood today. And of course its because of David. I hate the fact that he has complete control of my feelings. It's really starting to drive me crazy. I hate the fact that one comment out of his mouth that he thinks isn't a big deal, can ruin my entire day.

Below is a wonderful poem Audrey Hepburn wrote when asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later .

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.

Adding new members to Blogger

Well I've created a Blog for my family today. I'm really excited. I think it will be a great way of keeping in touch with everyone and what's new in their lives. Already have my uncle, mom, and her BF (ha! ha! Nick) joining. Sent emails to the rest of the families so hopefully they will be online soon. You can view the family blog at http://thepricegang.blogspot.com. Hope everyone in the family decides to join b/c I know once they experience it they'll love it.
Now that I've said that on with today's entry.
Ended up still not getting my car fixed today even though the guy told me he'd fix it this evening. WHATEVER! Knew it wasn't going to happen.
Suki & Cosmo got spayed/neutered today. =( I was so worried about them all day. I realized just how much I love my kitties today. Oh....guess I should introduce them to ya'll.
Cosmo is a silver short hair tabby. He's my little "dog". LOL He growls, knows how to sit, and plays fetch. I'm not joking. He really chases a ball and brings it back to me in his mouth. I'm trying to get a video clip of it for all you non believers.
Suki is a long hair blue & cream tabby. She's totally different from Cosmo. She's very calm and pretty well glued to me at all times. She's my baby. I actually got both of them from Town Lake Animal Shelter. At first they did not want to adopt out Suki. They said that she was unsocial and would never be able to be affectioniate to humans. I told them I'd take the risk and a year later I have the best cat in the world......and the ugliest as my friends have told me. LOL Yeah that's right....she's not the cutest cat but she's the sweetest.
Since I'm talking about them I guess I should introduce Lucky as well. She's their kitten. She's 7 weeks today. She's the only kitten that survived out of Suki's litter. Obviously this is where her name came from. I'll have pics up of all of them soon.

Finally found out the info on my car. Glad I didn't listen to my dad and decided to go ahead and plan on working tomorrow b/c it looks like he was full of it once again. Turns out the guy didn't really know much about what the plan was and won't be calling me until sometime tomorrow afternoon/evening. Now this means I won't have a car all weekend b/c he's taking it to his shop to work on. Good thing David decided not to come down b/c I wouldn't have been in the best mood.
Ended up getting pissed off at my mom today too. We were discussing the sperm donor ( my dad) and she got really upset with me for referring to him as that. This totally floored me. She's always agreed that he wasn't a father to me.....so why is she defending him now. Guess I should tell you a little about him to help you understand the relationship. Basically he hasn't been around much my whole entire life. I received my first birthday card from him on my 19th birthday. Took him nineteen years to remember my b-day. He also gave up all his rights to me when I was three or four b/c he didn't want to pay child support. I just wasn't worth him wasting his money on. He's tried the last few years to make up for things but he's constantly letting me down so its hard to keep giving him chances. For example, awhile back he called me and told me to be up early the next morning (8am) because he was coming to take me to breakfast. I got excited b/c this was going to be the first time he'd come up to Austin to see me. So the next day I was up by six getting ready to see him. Eight rolled around, then nine, then ten, next thing I knew it was noon and still no Dad and no phone call. He ended up not calling me for five months after that and when he finally did call he just acted like nothing happened................He's done this on at least three other occassions.
I know that when I'm older I'm going to regret not trying to have a relationship w/ my father which is why I keep holding on but its really getting to be too difficult. I'm just tired of him and tired of the whole situation.
Time for bed......good night!

First Entry w/ Blogger =)

HELLO! Well this is my first entry. I was using Live Journal but I just found out about this thanks to wonderful Melissa so I'm going to try it out. Already seems much better so far. I'll still be keeping everyone updated on Live Journal as well so you can still check that out too. At least until I get more familiar with this whole Blog thing.

So far the morning is going great. Arrived at work at 7 AM ....this is a first. I usually don't get here until 9:00 or 9:30. So I'll be falling asleep at my desk by 4pm today. LOL
I'm going to get back to work now. I will play with this more during my lunch hour.